day 3 without her..i miss her...i miss her voice...i miss her playing her guitar...i miss her smile....

the day i lost her is the day i lost my life...being so moodless..everyday...i am just living on the outside and dead in the inside...

guys i thought about it already...after i post "the last promise" i am done....making videos. there's no one that will watch my videos..no one will be always waiting for my videos every sunday....

its okay...i am not a great youtuber anyway. she doesn't laugh at my video as much as the other youtuber like tosh . noah and many more...i am really boring if you know me really long..

i feel that there is no point in life anymore ? my future children ? that if i can find someone that will put up with me for a really long time...if she willing to stay...i will be willing to try.

if i could ever find someone new....i would never make that mistake ever ! for now...i..really dont know what to do every night...i spend like 11 months skyping with her every night that i forgotten what i do when i am not skyping....but her ? she got so many guys that likes her...she doesn't mind losing me....so many guys she would skype with...

Me ? i dont have anyone thats likes me..so i am just a forever alone guy....

i wonder how many guys she said "i am at the very top with falling in love with you and you would do something stupid and ruin it"

hais...she a nice girl anyways...but i never...appreciate her....that where all it end...

if someday i will ever meet her again...i promise i am changed person

-jordan